Its weird I don’t know what happened. Its as if I woke up a week ago a new person. My thoughts on drinking have completely changed. After binge drinking since i was 12 so 13 years straight I’m finally over it. I don’t even feel like it. I don’t drink for the sole purpose of getting fucked up. Its fucking cool all i do is smoke weed. Its not just the drinking thing that has changed so much but my over all confidence in myself. I’m actually looking ahead myself, seeing the big picture and actually doing the things i need to do to make that happen. Like for one, saving up so i can get out of this fucking warehouse and so my dog can be a happy free dog not stuck in my bedroom all day. Also, not being so crazy as to push my relationships away. I really really like this guy. I’ve been with him for 2years off and on, hopefully we actually stick to it this time i dont know it feels a little different now,better. Im all growns up and it feels good. I want shit to work out damnit and Im not letting anyone get in my way.

12:17 pm  •  3 February 2012  •  2 notes